sun light, moon light

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 18:03:02 GMT

I gave myself a new header and changed the colors a little.
tatterhoodtatterhoodtatterhood

There is one link color (links withing my entries) that I can't figure out how to change. It's driving me NUTS. Also, the title of my entries.. can't figure out how to change that either. It's like it doesn't exist in the code.

If anyone on my flist is good with CSS and can help me out I'd appreciate it.

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:46:15 GMT

Ugh. Awake. I shouldn't be when I have no school. I should be sleeping forever. :\

Tessa called and woke me up around 10:00 to ask if I wanted to go to her place for dinner tomorrow. Yeah, sure.. cool beans. I love eating. BUT JESUS CHRUNCH! DON'T WAKE ME UP AT 10:00 IN THE MORNING WHEN I'VE WORKED THE NIGHT BEFORE AND YOU APPARENTLY THINK I'M IN SCHOOL. Feh. Stooo-peeed! Work does this to me all the time too. They call in the afternoon after I get off school when they KNOW I ONLY GET 4 HOURS OF SLEEP to see if I'm in when they could easily look at the schedule and be like. Oh hey, she's is in tonight. Awesome!
But no, instead they take the effort to find my number and call me because apparently everyone in that department is either mildly retarded or illiterate. Sobeys was cool when I first started, no matter how much I said I hated my job, but now it just SUCKS. Seriously.

Going to the school today to work on assignments that I should have started a week ago. YAY FOR RUSH JOBS! I don't even know where I stad with school anymore. With dad losing his job I don't know if he's going to be able to pay for my school and I feel so insanely guilty about asking him for money. I'm hoping that all my ~~lackluster~~ efforts towards school aren't for nothing.

So, my original intention with this post was not to rant but to post TaeYangs new MV... which I'm sure everyone has seen by now but HOLY SHIT I seriously was tearing up. Ignore the fact that I cry easily, but the video is just so well done! So.. without further ado. Mr. Young Bae!!!

*applause*

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 10:49:02 GMT

dfhdf

So many assignments due next week and I haven't started any because I'm a douche like that. At least I'm going out to the school today to start work on a few of them -_- Ugh. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! I'm always an asshole to my future self. I need to learn to not procrastinate.

I tried uploading the Anoween pictures to facebook and my computer will have none of it. It was all like "FUCK THIS NOISE!" and sounded like it was preparing to crash... so I was like.. I"M SORRY COMPUTER. Three failed attempts later and no anoween pictures on the internet. Sorry folks, looks like they're getting slotted into my personal folder. Maybe I'll post a handful of the 'good' ones later if I'm not lazy. Which never happens. So, don't hold your breath.

Also. I need to write. I have about 3 GTOP fics in my head but I can't be bothered to write them when I sit down to write. All my motivation just kind of vanishes. WHY CAN'T I BE INSPIRED WHEN I COME HOME FROM WORK RATHER THAN AT WORK WHEN CREATIVITY IS USELESS?!?!

Sigh.
I bought fudge today and its kind of gross. I'll eat it anyway though....

If you want an entry of substance please move on to another journal because clearly I don't have anything important to say... ever...

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 03:01:33 GMT

Conversation regarding Lee Byung Huns character, Storm Shadow, in G.I. Joe

Me: He's all like "I'm an asshole"
Jackie: An asshole I'd like to fuck
Me: ...That's nasty!
Group: *proceeds to lol until dead*

Seriously, watch your words Jackums!

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 12:52:12 GMT

I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT...

Feel free to wank. Anon or otherwise. I like knowing the truth.
Also, this is the first time I've ever done one of these sorts of memes. lol. make me look like I have friends?

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 13:07:07 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEE OH PAY

COME TO NOONA kekeke

I was totally going to edit this and put "Who's awesome? You're awesome!" on it, but I got lazy. So... no. Pretend its on there.

GTOP is ALWAYS win. Always.

sakjdf look at that love

Seriously, only one TOP icon? .... Thats pathetic.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 10:44:25 GMT

I got the no sleep crazies!

WOOOOOOO PARTAY UP IN HERE!!

ugh. Butterfinger at 6:30am is not a good idea. I don't know why I thought it was.

To Ten Seperate People...

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 10:39:38 GMT

You intimidate me
You don't, no matter how hard you try
You are the person I aspire to be.
You are the epitome of awkward
You were suppose to be my BFF. What happened?
You hate me and think I'm an idiot and I'm not too sure why.
You make me question my sexuality sometimes. Just sayin.
You make me feel so dumb, but you know what? I don't even care because you're the coolest person I know.
You are the newest friend in my life and I hope you stay in my life because you're awesome!
You are the one I think about and miss everyday. I regret the last time I saw you and wish I could go into the past and change things

Go ahead and guess if you want, but I probably won't tell you because half of those are mean. :\ yeah, I'm a jerkface.
Unless they're painfully obvious like #9. Hehe.. ~~Momo.~~

So, I promise Anoween pictures as soon as life stops being busy. Seriously you guys. (lol. already over a week late. WHOOPS.)
Ugh.
School... I'm pretty sure I'm not doing that great because work is so -there-. Hopefully with the schedule adjustment I'll be able to get my assignments done on time.

UUUGH! WHY DO I TORTURE MYSELF WITH CHOCOLATE MILK?!
I get sick EVERYTIME drink it, but I drink it anyway. u.u It's so good though.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 09:59:32 GMT

Work tonight sucked major amounts of wang. Let me explain why.

- had to do a boil out on the fryer. Excuse me, I have never done one. So ... it took me like... half the night to do it
- because I'm a douche, I put grease down the sink accidently and may very well have backed up the whole store.
- I dropped like... a full bag of pepperoni allllll over the floor. fffffffff
- it's work. it always sucks.
- on my way home I was literally a foot from getting bowled over by a giant as truck. While I was crossing the road on a crosswalk.
- I stink like grease. I WILL NEVER NOT SMELL LIKE THIS AGAIN....
- unrelated to work, but I'm hungry. ffff I have no money for groceries.

MY LIFE T_T

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 11:26:42 GMT

Anoween has come and gone. With it this year it brought plenty of frustration. I can't wait to never use that call again... ugh (dispite it being one of the better halls for air circulation and ventilation).

Problems aside, Anoween was amazing this year. There was TONS of awesome costumes and we got a pretty effing huge crowd. I feel nostalgic everytime I think about Anoween of years past. From Julies garage 8 years ago with a tiny gathering of close friends, no more than 15 people, to today. A crowd of 150 people+. I'd even go so far to say that Anoween would have been larger if our location was better.

Really, this year was impressive. I don't want to jinx us for next year, but even though its an all ages event the crowd, for the most part, it extremely mature.

I'll post pictures in my next entry, hopefully, when I get the time and energy to upload and resize. I didn't take many pictures due to not having much motor skills in my hands and not being able to see for a good portion of the night (gloves and a face mask is NOT happening again at Anoween. No matter how epic the costume is). I was lucky enough to have a Shannon, who kidnapped my camera and took copious amounts of pictures.

Sooooo, to anyone who has attended Anoween- past, present or plans on attending in the future, Thank You!

As unenthusiastic as I have been about the event, I'm kind of excited to do the next one. It's a shame we have to use these events as an excuse to all get together. Not too sure when the next one is going to happen...

With school/work/general getting older/money issues, the girls and I don't really have time to run as many events as we use to. NGL, though, I kinda want to do another one soon. I just wish they weren't so expensive to put on sometimes.

Maybe cosplay sledding once winter hits? People would have to realize, of course, that costumes would have to be warm first of all, and secondly they might get ruined in the process. Either way, it kinda sounds like fun. And I haven't gone sledding for years ~~but theres probably a reason for that~~

Annnd, it was awesome to see Tanya, Crystal, Jason and Kim-face again. I miss them so hard. I hate that we see them only at events (mostly) when we're too busy to actually converse. GUYS! I LIVE ALONE NOW... I mean, I have only one bed... BUT ALL 5 OF US CAN JAM ON THERE!!! ... I'm sure Jason won't oppose to it. lol.

um, since I don't have pictures to offer yet (and, tbh, I don't know when I will because my computer is being retard slow) heres a .gif.

I love these two more than you can even imagine. To a creepily obsessed point... LoL, look at YB in the background... he looks so bored. While Seung Ri and Dae Sung are like *stare* :D
Ah, I love their cute, matching bff shoes ~~so what if they were probably forced to wear them for a photoshoot or something.. its the principle of the matter!~~

Ah, I've been feeling so inspired to actually write recently but I don't have the time. Ever. Except on the weekends and thats reserved for rping/general exisiting (it's awful that I actually reserve time for rping. I'm reliving my high school days in my mid twenties. A LIFE, I NEED ONE!)

Being too long winded today. I have about 20billion other things I could post about but I have about 20 minutes to get ready and be out the door... Annnd, I don't even want to go.

I'm feeling so frustrated with school. I don't even know what to do about it. FFFFFFF
I think I may have lost my school scribbler at Anoween... :\
Did anyone happen to pick a 5 subject spiral notebook with a red cover that says 'Kat' in silver letters? (how specific of me)

Ok. I'm done being too long winded.

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:56:37 GMT

TIME FOR SOME TMI!

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 10:09:10 GMT

MY UTERUS!
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D:

Why do you hate me?! Thank you for working properly this month, but please. Lets play nice, okay?
Uuuugh.

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 19:51:41 GMT

Sooo, my mom just called and was like. "Hey, with the money I got from Nana's estate I was thinking about getting a car. If you get your license I'll give you my old one." I was like.. wow, this is shocking. She's giving me her car? Yeah. This would be pretty awesome if I can get my license! I think I might have to take the course now, but if not I may just go and be like "WHOO! GIVE ME MY LICENSE, BEOTCH".
This may not happen, it may just be wishful thinking, but I hope it goes through! It would be so much awesome to have a car and all that rot. NO MORE BUS!

And, now for some emo

Ah, so my dad is home. For some reason I thought things would change. I hoped that things would be different now, but they're not. If anything, they're worse. Ugh.
He called randomly Sunday night and asked me to come over and I went because I was excited to see him. I was being ignorant to the fact that he didn't sound quite right on the phone because I thought "hey, he's only been home one day. It's probably just jet lag".
By the time I got there he was already half gone and he had 3 more drinks while I was there... and I was only there for 2 hours.
Even though I'm an independant 24 year old woman, when I'm around him I feel like I regress to my childhood. I become completely helpless and I just don't know what to say to him.
Seeing him like that is really tough. It use to not bother me, I use to ignore it. But its getting harder to ignore now. I seem him so infrequently I kind of want him to remember the meetings he has with me. I want him to be himself.
And he looks awful. And he sounds awful. His health is really, really bad. To the point where I don't even know if he'll make it to Christmas.
Mom wants me, Tessa and her to go over as a family and confront him about it.. but really, there is no point. He knows what he's doing to himself. This has been his life and he doesn't want to change. We've been telling him for years that this is killing him. If he wanted to quit he would have done it by now.
I'm just at a loss. I don't know what to do with him. I love him to death but I don't want to see him if this is all its going to be when he's around. Is that selfish?

And I miss my Nana.

[/emo]

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:16:01 GMT

Luck. It seems to have found me.

Sweet Lord I missed you, Luck! NEVER LEAVE ME AGAIN!

In unrelated news. MARIANAS TRENCH TONIGHT. HOLY FUCK YES!
Also, MY DAD IS COMING HOME THIS WEEKEND! I"M SO HAPPY I COULD CRY ♥♥♥♥
I can't wait to see him. I think his flight is coming in 12:00 am on the 17.. soo... I'm not sure if thats Friday or Saturday. Midnight always confuses me.

I need a better happy icon.

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 00:32:34 GMT

lmao! HI! WHY DO I OLY UPDATE THIS THING WHEN I SHOULD BE RUSHING OUT THE DOOR?!

Work in a half hour... and I should be getting dressed to leave. BUT I'M LAZY.

MARIANAS TRENCH THIS WEEK. NGL, I'M BEYOND STOKED.

I"M ALSO STUCK ON CAPS! HUR HUR HUR!

Ugh, no more chocolate chiip cookies, please. I'm going to heave.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 09:50:02 GMT

I don't think I've complained about work recently, so here we go!!

Apparently I don't do enough work. Apparently not taking breaks and working through the night and trying my hardest to get the shit they ask me to do done is not enough. What. The. Shit?

Seral. George told me tonight that he overheard Melanie (the raging bitch) and Chris (someone I thought was a friend) talking. Chris said something along the lines of "The salads aren't done either" to which Melanie replied "She doesn't do anything in the night". ARGH!

Last night I didn't do salads because I had seven trays to do, plus I had to start Grab and Go from scratch. Ffffffff.

My nightly routine, for those of you who forget, is scan out waste, compost waste, spot checks, do trays if there are any (and there is always trays), do grab and go, do salads, flip salad case and clean up. This might not seem like a whole lot but Grab and Go alone takes me at the very least 4 hours, 3 and a half if I'm pumped up on caffine. Then salads Is usually about 2 hours. Waste/Spot checks/Printing off reports is an hour at best. Soooo, thats 7 hours (give or take) gone. Annnd I'm suppose to get the salad case flipped, which usually takes me about an hour. annnnd clean up after myself. Which I usually give myself about a half hour. So, I'm already overtime here.

This is so frustrating! Not only am I under appreciated at work, but apparently so much so that they feel I'm not DOING anything. On the occasion that I don't get salads done, or perhaps don't have time to price them, they lose their minds. Sorry, but I'm not super woman. I can't get everything in the whole department done so you can just sit back all day and do fuck all. SERIOUSLY!

The worst part is, is that I could probably get in trouble for 'not doing enough' even though obviously the work load is to heavy as it is. All Melanie has to do is run to Kevin and be all 'omg *whinebitchcomplain*' and I'll have another letter on my file. :\ Not impressed.

I can't wait until Cythia comes back so I can talk to her. I might even go into work today so I can talk to Kevin and let him know how I feel.

ALSO! I booked off the 14th into the 15th 3 WEEKS AGO and guess whos working that night? OH HO! Can you also guess who WON"T BE SHOWING UP FOR HER SHIFT?! Seral. UNIM-FUCKING-PRESSED

*flips shit* *pant pant pant*...

/rant

Also, ACCEPT ME TO THE RP*sob*

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 11:42:24 GMT

I'm stepping out of my eternal pessimist state for a moment and trying to put on a happy face.

Because of certain circumstances my dad is coming home to Cape Breton. He plans on returning to China but he bought a one way ticket home because he doesn't know when he'll go back. I'm being a little selfish here because I'm happy for that. I miss my dad mad crazy and on the 17th he'll be hooooome! ♥ Granted, I'm not too sure when I'll actually get to see him but the fact of the matter is that he'll be on the island. I haven't gotten to see him since last summer so I'm pretty excited to see him again. \o/ Yay for Dad times.

As an aside. I didn't go to school yesterday because 1) I WAS HAVING A BAD DAY! and 2) ugh, I'm getting sick. Swine flu maybe. not really though. (I really shouldn't joke about this. lmao). It kinda hits me in waves. and it hits hard! Today I feel better, but come tonight I might be bed ridden and unable to breath due to a stuffed nose.

School now. Ugh. I'm tired.
Im waiting for Cythia to come back from her holiday so I can set up a meeting with her and Kevin to discuss possibly going back to day shift. I need at least 32 hours to survive on my own, but it looks like going back to day shift that might not happen (even if I'm like...5th on senority list out of like...20 employees. and thats below the 2 managers in the department. Whaaat?). idek. School and backshift is haaaard. I'm wearing myself out. This is why I'm getting sick I think.
I would talk to Kevin alone but holy shit he intimidates me. He's like... my height and weights about half of what I do but he just has this "I will fuck you up" presence. Scary like whoa. Plus he's more moody than a woman. Sereal.

*flips shit*

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 18:20:34 GMT

Dear World,

I'm not put on this planet purely for your sick, twisted amusment. Kthxbye

Unhappily Yours,
Kathleen

:\ today sucks.

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 19:28:07 GMT

I feel like making a sign to post on every bus in Sydney that says "WE DO NOT FART HERE!"
Seriously. Buses are unpleasent enough. I don't want to smell you for the entirity of my bus ride, kthnx.
Uggggh. Busing is the thing I hated the most about college :\

Also, I could live off of green tea juice, raisin bread and potatoes. Sounds like a delishious meal to me!

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 00:35:45 GMT

Lately I've been finding it really difficult to tell the differance between dreams and waking reality when I'm remembering past events. Even if something isn't logical I can't seem to place if it really happened or not. It takes me a few moments of thorough thought to place exactly if it was a dream or if it really occured.

Also, I had a dream about zombies again. Zombies, for some reason, are the only nightmares that I ever seem to have. :\ I like the concept of zombies and I think they're cool but holy shit they scare the crap out of me! I woke up with my heart racing. ;_;
If there was ever a zombie attack and I'm at my apartment I've decided I'm fucked. Ground floor/no real escape route. I know Z-Day is going to happen while I'm living here just because thats my sort of luck.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 12:51:05 GMT

I just managed to get ready in record time. Got up, showered, blow dryed, dressed, make-up'd and ready to gtfo of here in 15 minutes flat. I even have a few spare minutes to update this journal with my accompishments. Woo. ~~Time management. I has it.~~

Now to go and rush job that homework that is due at 12:00. Huuuur.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 00:35:46 GMT

So far this has been a very trying week. I can make it to the weekend. I can I can I can.

This is just a really quick update before I go to work to let people know I'm alive, and heey! I didn't get swine flu from the Manson concert. Yaaaaay.
Lunch with meronine and her husband, Jon, was one of the highlights of the weekend. Seriously, probably one ofthe cutest and well match couples I have ever met.
Other highlights include seeing Kelly and Sean ♥, the actual concert and partying afterwards. WOOOO. More detail on this later..

Now I work ;_;

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 11:39:06 GMT

YAAAY!

- GAHO!!!!!!!
- angel!GD is just prection. Sereal.
- I didn't think the MV dance would be so close to his preformance dance.
- He looks so happy! YAAAAYHAPPY GD!

Also, the Sydney River Sobeys got robbed last night? Whaaat!? Hilarious!

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 01:45:15 GMT

lol. So I went into work tonight and guess what? I'm not working. Dur. Whatever. I figure a good nights sleep tonight will help me get through the week. I totally could have stayed to work, but I didn't feel like it.
Now I work the morning we're driving up to Halifax but I'll just pass out in the car on the way up (or try to at least. I can't sleep in cars like I use to anymore).

Speaking of Halifax, there is an event type thing happening after the Marilyn Manson concert. This seems like a good time. A few people I know are hitting it up, so maybe we can go? Are you guys down? I don't know. I might be dead after the concert but even still. It seems pretty awesome. I'll inject some redbull into my veins if I have to.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 20:25:19 GMT

I may have poisioned myself, but it was delishious! Yum, porkchops.

Ugh, I have to work tonight. My schedule got bumped up a day since I'm going to halifax this weekend. BOO! i don't want to work tonight. I'm in a mad rush to get my homework done. I was busy all day yesterday and today I was unconcious until 11, ate, and then went back to sleep until 3. I shouldn't even be updating this stupid thing... I should be doing homework.

At least I only have to do my portraits? Suppose to draw a portrait of a person from memory ... ~~totally going to look at a picture of TOP and be like LOOK AT THIS BEAUTIFUL MAN HE IS MY HUSBAND A DUUUUR!~~